It is about time I admit that it is a time of new seasons for me. Oh where do I start? It is going to be my second month here.
To be honest, it is after 2 months would be the longest I have been away from home. When I studied in Kuching (Borneo Islands) I flew home every other weekend lol – even for 3 days. I would skip classes sometimes heh. Realising I can’t do that here is a little bit new for me.
Nevertheless, my time here has been nothing less than amazing. I have definitely had some ups and downs for sure, but this week has been overwhelming for me. I would like to remind my future self reading this to never look back again. This week has been a breakthrough for me. This is true in so many different ways.
I’ve had countless nights tossing and turning in bed and waking up before my alarm rings. Throughout the week I went through so many things that I had to constantly choose peace. Yes, you should agree that it is not easy. Often, the easier way would be to just admit defeat and start worrying. Anxiety. Believing in anxiety and worrying is a paradox to believing in God. This is a lesson I’ve heard countless times (especially during the Fullness conference) I know but never learnt to take heart (at least till now). I was so exhausted – the cold, the snow, cancellation of tests, every other reason. By Friday I was beat. Tired out, and suddenly I decided to listen to Graham Cooke’s message from Fullness. Hearing it the third time finally struck me in the heart. I’ve had this gradual feeling of freedom, pure peace and just slowly feeling free again.
Yes, situations may not go my way all the time but Jesus is for me.
Also, this week so many people have ministered to me and I want to remind myself to be thankful for them. My parents have always been on Skype telling me to trust God in everything, and in life group this week we had a prophecy practice thing. It was so impromptu! Regardless, Jesus is always good and we prophesied over each other. The guys in my small group spoke three things over me: fruits I may not see, a calming sunrise and the word patience. (Yeah like, what?) But I have faith! To see all this things come to pass. Anyways back to the Friday. I purposed in my heart that I was so tired of living a tired life, I want to hold my ground and claim my rest back. To add on the whole process, today, Past Chris spoke about the “Change of Heart” in church. What are we living for? Because everything that we do springs out from the heart. Are we guarding it?
Nosi spoke a word over me today – it struck me so hard. I am not ready to share it yet. But I am so blessed. To catch a glimpse of what’s in store for me.
Psalms 91 – a whole chapter worth meditating over and over again.
AH LIFE, SO MUCH TO LOOK FORWARD TO. Two more hours into a brand new week. What do you say Jesus? Ready? Well, if You are I am.
Have a great week ahead everyone! Remember to always be grateful for each day you live, live it to the best you possibly can. An ex classmate’s sister passed away earlier today. It’s always devastating to hear of new like this but Jesus wanted her home early. We can only live each day like it’s our last. Only then we’ve really lived. 🙂
Oh. My old love for Switchfoot is back. I found this song ever so relevant.